being a pizza delivery driver is great because literally no one is disappointed to see you
I LOVE YOU MORE
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m fucking fucked up to the fucking nth degree. I don’t know what I’m doing without you here. But I don’t know anymore how I’d keep you during this time.. I’ve been here 10 days and there’s already been at least 5 people who’ve cheated on their significant others… that’s fucking horrible.. I’m saving you from the nonexistent possibility of that, our schedules leave no room to communicate, i’m trying to acclimate myself here, our futures clash…
I’m so lost
Every song reminds me of you, everything I do in my daily routine, your voicemails and texts kill me because I can’t help but listen to them all.. I hate myself for doing this to us but there just isn’t any other way right now for me to function.. It wouldn’t be fair to you. You and I both know I can’t waste your time like how I’ve been apparently doing for almost the last two years… fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.
I’m sorry Ryan. I am so, so, so, sorry..
I can’t ever forget you, fuck, what am I even doing…
I need my mind clear. especially realizing how I couldn’t handle the pressure of the future and the current. I know you are so willing to change for me but I won’t let you… I don’t even know. I just can’t go back now, maybe later, but definitely not now.. I know you don’t understand why but I can’t even understand why so how can i even start to explain it
I just need to be alone for a bit to regroup